Is it Care..??

                I need someone to take care of me... Even though we are well specialized in taking care of others ,  We still need someone to take care of us,, That someone need not to be special one or partner or lover  but an ordinary person who considers me, hear ma thoughts and feel ma feelin...
           
           Its really quite normal that we run behind the people whom we lyk , trying to impress that person and making them to turn towards us.  It may work but its little doubt  whether it lasts for long , because people mind changes often and so does the decisions.. Here comes the next case normally Unexpected people approach us,, First we dont like Totally but we respond them.. Naturally we know the feel how it 'l disappoint us we didnt get reply from our beloved persons. We 'l be a proper human in this matter and all.. Later we understand ,  how much care  they are showing towards us,,, There is one quite normal sayin that , when we fall sick or met  accident , we can able to know the real care of the person...
                       
               Lets come back to our track . Yup Care, When we are in alone, those people strike our memory. Its not that when we are alone we started to think of such persons but we have sufficient time to understand them because mostly we are occupied around our friends. Atleast we expect some special care frm beloved ones . Its the Truth , but we hide these things like acting " i'l take care of myself " dont worry... Its really we are sayin to us , to convince our heart  when we didnt get proper attention..Also it will CURE easier when we are under CARE... And another thing  i have to say this : somepeople are alwaz kept saying ' i care for yu a lot ' .. Its unnatural . Real Care should be  always and not as seasonal breeze  and we know wht type of category it belong to. It should come from heart and should not remain as word till last.....!

Change and break in time wheel

                 After a long days i have know the worth of " hard working" during the practise of Bard Fest'11.. I was in the event skit . I really thank ma master. He had great and enthusiastic idea towards the skit and he tolerated all my mistakes.. Nearly a month  i was away from ma college and i was in practise now iam back to the wheel of my study. Initially it took time to sit in class  to listen whats going on., and come out of the practise days , mentally. 


         Its not only in class but took time with my friends too . Its not about that bard fest season and now class season but actual understanding between the friends. Initially friends miss us. At sometimes my part is filled by others . Once when a break occurs in Relationships means , its hard to bind like earlier times. Wavelength, situation  and understanding matters each and every moment. Each coin have gud and bad times. We 'll hope for the best times... 

          At first i run behind the people whom i like most.. and now its reciprocal people are caring me a lot  but i dont have any feelings towards them. Responsing , promising to hav a gud future, shower love till last : everything is true and i cant able to believe. I dont know whether is a fear or people mind changes,  it wont be static everytime  and i cant able to trust 'coz once we stepped down second time we wont  fall and third thing something i feel uncomfortable and i cant be like initially 'coz in the mean time their behaviour made me to behave like this !  

Pain - hard to handle

                 
                       I alwaz used to tell  ' tears are so valuable...' dont waste it for him/her .. also for silly things.. The same person who told this cries often.. some people usually wont cry .. or they may have enough bold to face the things .. in general for  two things the tears would come:  first is  pain ie.. when someone beats or when u fall and blood comes..'coz you cant tolerate the pain. Second, when sumone hurts by their words , scolds you or  someone cheats you  etc.. the latter one  it shows how people took those things..  it depends!  some people cry and somepeople dont.


         When we talk  deeply abt this pain we can say it is : physically and mentally.. In love affairs whn our beloved ones rejects or didnt accepts us means.. automatically  tears would come after getting into our room, eventhough when we act so strong.. In this case some hearts broke into pieces and felt thats all its over. Some people would try again and Some people tooks revenge. There is also another category of people, they cant abl to forget their loved ones.. whn they remember they start crying,, when some memory flashes it even increases. They wont cry in front of everyone,,  they cry inside,  in their heart and it sounds high...  It is really dangerous and it's also tough to identify..thts what we used to tell 'pain in heart' .. memories of loved ones have even a tendency to kill us.. i mean they cant able to concentrate on other things.. somepeople 'll live in their memories and somepeople they cant abl to bear it.. they 'll be oscillating between things where to live past or present or in future what they dreamt.. this is really unjustifiable..


           Secondly, physically.... pain in our body. it might be headache,   or some of disease or killing disease like Rheumatism.. which kills day by day.. Its a bone disease.. technically speaking it is a chronic autoimmune disease with inflammation of the joints and marked deformities;  i.e. a painful disorder of joints  Here the pain is classified as mild, medium, high, very high and extreme (untolerable) .The pain killers are used to mask the brain form pain.  It erodes the joints ie.. the synovial fluid becomes dry.. Simple the concept is just like putting an oil on the machine whn oil dries up the machine makes sound and becomes slow.. here the pain occurs and cant able to do daily works like brushing, bathing, eating and even knocking the door. Imagine  what  about playing, writing.. and  working. In all these our body parts involves particularly  joints.. finger joints too.. Identifying this early is really good... Prevention is better than cure!!!

          We say usually, it comes to aged people but nw it occurs in all age.. somedays there'll be no pain and  somedays the pain which is inevitable and excruciating.. ie we cannot predict the pain.. Please dont ask  these people to do heavy works ... Just help them unknowingly i mean taking coffee for them, writing letters and notes.. Asking help is quite common.. but when they didnt do.. it's the bigger pain than the actual pain.. It really hurts when i cant able to help people  when they ask me to do some work.. when i think i cant able to do.. its really hurts .. Why God punished such people by offering this rheumatoid arthritis in earlier itself ..??? 

Doing things wantedly

    When we came to know that the she/he is for us.. we start playing with them by simple saying that 'iam just kidding yaar'.. some people took just like that.. some people adjust with their beloved ones .. some people dont like playing with emotions.. Both souls live for each other. The problem starts with the ego and misunderstanding we even doesnt know  where it arises..
         If he/she will forget him/her to give importance.. the answer'll be ' iam little busy dear' i accept this as truth.. if this repeats we say 'how much work for u  darling, take care of urself'.. but it occurs everytime what to do.. this really lies upon  for which things we give the first priority, its for the beloved ones (which was in once upon a time) or the people around us
    One thing we'll clear that she/he is my girl/man... iam everything for her.. completly surrendered to me.. i know everything abt her/him.. i know whts her reaction would be for each and every activity and she cannot live without me.. (is this information enough for me !?) oh my god what a proud for me .. she is crying for me dude.. and  dying for me for  just one reply... what i gonna to do.. shall is shower my love for her.. ??  why should i... its just a waste of time for me...or shall i do things like hearing songs, watching movies and make friendship with new persons (once upon a time  he bunked the class for her)...  but wt can i do for her care towards me.
           
           Here is the answer,, just ignore her/him..  and dont attend the call.. coz  LOVE is the easier thing we get in this world and nobody wants it , the care.. If i get bored 'll say 'hi' to her.. coz i just  wanna  kill time, but,  for her 'my man is back'...

The raise of love

      This college life is really terrible life.. the heart and mind is always oscillating what we have to choose..  what to do.. whether yes or no.. First we slightly look at the person.. the admiration starts.. (we dont know that problem is also starting) we also say whats wrong when we just look at the person.. next step  we try to talk at the person .. Here what the tragedy is we always keep trying..  and speaking with our heart and thinking about the admirer.

    This is not only at the college days.. but also especially in school days..During the start of the college.. suprisingly we'll get message from the same person..we get laughed and stunned.. and texting 'll be continued and started talking..  and enjoy the moments. Normally we consider them as one the close and best friends by the way we share and exchange the thoughts. One day we get the chance and meet the person like casual meeting , outing , roaming and ends with dinner, photos and bye..
    In this partying we 'll meet many friends and phone numbers are get exchanged (in earlier  we struggled to get numbers, bt nw with in a second all becomes easy). While in contact.... unknowingly the 'possessiveness' occurs.. and start fighting and result in hatredness . we 'll be  in the fear whether we'll miss our friend...Herecomes an illusion love or friend... whatever it may i would feel better and complete if he is near to me..
    Now while sharing unfortunatly likes and dislikes 'll we same and would come to know that he/she is the best company/partner. we'll do things which are unfamilier by saying in the way "whats wrong in it" and take adventure.. The situation comes: made for each other and love rain.. With the day to day activities and some duties, rarely we speak and 'll miss each other. occasionly the chat 'll continue for some hours and 'll die for the moment to talk.. we dont  know we re living in each other's heart..

Things we like or hate

     Today iam in full of tension.. anger. I feel like breaking things, shouting , planning to run way from the home.. utmost and possible thing wt i can do without affecting others is crying.. CRYING.. that crying inside itself is the terrible thing .. cha we cant i cant even shout..  this is all i got in life what a life ..by shouting itself i thought of decrease my emotions..

    There are somethings which we dont like  and hate somethings. Some things we wish to happen  and something we aim to happen . For example we dont like our beloved to drink liquors , why we dont like ? here are the answers :   The topmost thing is the smell we get irritable and intorable and its not a healthy thing and it brings unhealthy life, sideeffects and health problems. The anger rises , when we  cant be able to stop the event  which we dont like.

           Life is based on satisfaction , satisfying small small things. To satisfy others we first want to know the things which others dont like . If  we cant to able do things which others like, we should not the things that others dont like. In life what we going to succeed in doing things which we hate . People  may say its my way of being happy, there should be happiness which doesnt  affect others  or even we can do it when we are out station.... i mean drinking.

     Usually  i dont like to advise ... we are all educated we know what we are doing , it even  tension us if we hear it. If we saw people going in bad way , we tell them coz its our love, beloved one  and we dont like to see  our love going worse . So we asking our beloved ones  ' dont do that '.. who will care more than us? Finally we say  its your wish and i cant understand that: they are not understanding us or failed to understand or they are doing wantly or hurting us or hating us by doing doing things which we hate . I said
 getting drunked as an example and there are many things which  dont suit for our living .

    There are some morals which teaches us how to live:  For one man one women, helping others  and eating healthy foods. we can also live by doing  things oppositely which i mentioned . Live is for us and should live as we like. There is also another way to reduce our tension by writing our emotions like as i did....